Worry

I'm not a big worrier. I don't spend hours thinking about what could possibly happen. I leave the country when I should probably stay in and then while everyone else worries, I figure that if God wants me in the country, He'll get me back in. Some might call that reckless. I guess I just feel like worry is a waste of my time when I'm the hands of an Almighty God.

But I'll be honest and tell you that now that I'm leaving in less than five weeks, some worry has set in. The shipping company that I use to ship boxes from the US to Ukraine charges almost three times as much to ship in reverse. I've thrown out a lot and am giving a lot away, but I still have the reality of needing to get more than two suitcases of valuable stuff home. Worry.

I think about the fact that I don't know if I'll stay in the States and serve from there, or move to Warsaw and serve from there. And I wonder if my supporters will stick with me while I pray through this decision and if it's a non-foreign location I'm serving from, will they still see it as a valid ministry? Worry.

These are serious issues and I've got "valid" reason to worry, but I sit here and think about the fact that THE Almighty God knows each and every detail of my life. And just as He takes care of me as I wander all throughout Eastern Europe in some not-so-safe locations completely worry free, He will continue to take care of me in this transitional time, where I don't have lots of answers. So, as I roll the kinks out of my neck, I remind myself that it's just so much better to trust and not worry. "Why worry when you're in the safest place you could possibly be- in the hands of the Almighty, All-caring, All-knowing God??"