Sometimes I Don't Think That I Am:
*good enough to...
*ever going to be...
*worthy of being...
*ever going to get over...
*going to regain...
*going to get back to...
*going to be given...
*strong enough to...
*a person who can...
(I copied and pasted my answers elsewhere. You can come up with your own list)
The
reality is that I am a broken, hurting person, still trying to sort
through a lot of things. I've been hurt by people that I trusted and new
defense walls have gone up and I know that I can't tear them down by
myself. Being reminded today of God's incredible love for me is so good.
The thing is, we're ALL broken, hurting people, and while constantly
singing about or reminding ourselves of what God does for us is indeed
selfish(and we should be focusing on praising him, glorifying him,
etc.), we're humans and NEED to be constantly reminded. Because, guess
what? We're imperfect people, and messy, and short-sighted, and forgetful. We
forget that He is our Creator, who calls us Beautiful; that He is strong
enough to hold us and protect us; that He deeply cares for the concerns
and hurts of our hearts; that He loves us SO much and so wants for us to
show that love to others by the way that we love them; that He truly
wants the best for us; that His timing is not ours, but it's perfect
timing; and that He wants to draw us so, so, close to Him as He
whispers, "Beloved, trust Me, wait on Me, obey Me, abide with Me, let Me
carry those things that are just too much for you to handle. Because I
am Your Father, Creator, Lover....and you are made in My image."
I am my beloved's, and He is mine. His banner over me is love.
**Once again, this post was inspired by Jamie, the Very Worst Missionary, who's about to make her own transition from life as a missionary in Costa Rica to life as a mission pastor's wife in the US. Check out her latest post at: http://www.theveryworstmissionary.com/
